Being Happier

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." ~Isaiah 43:18-19.
Okay, so this month has been really busy. My days are pretty much scheduled around classes, but that's okay because I'm at least getting to learn. The biggest change I have seen though is that I am happier!!!
Happy is defined as delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing, and I believe that is what has happened with me. I have let go of some things that only God can control. It has taken me quite awhile to come to the realization that only God can control these things.
The main thing that I have let go of is probably worrying about boys so much. I use to feel like I had to have this amazing love story of how my husband and I had known each other our whole lives before we fell in love. Or that we were college sweethearts. Just some kind of unique story that they would think was a fairy tale. So I guess with worrying about all of that I became, oh I can't believe I'm even labeling myself as this, "boy crazy". Okay, there I said it, it's now out in the open.
If I saw a boy I thought was nice looking I would wonder "is he the one?" I prayed to God for a certain situation to work out with a guy. It was kind of like I was saying "Okay God, You can have the pen to write my love story as long as I get to pick the guy." Well I'm here to tell you that's not how wonderful Christ-centered love stories are written! Having the idea of trying to fool yourself and even God into thinking you are stepping back so He can write your love story is just going to leave you heartbroken and questioning God when He is standing there sadden by the fact that you don't want to accept His wonderful story He has penned out just for you! 
So how did I realize this was what was standing in my way of me being happy? It started sinking in on New Years Eve when I was trying to find a Bible verse to be my verse of 2014. It was like Isaiah 43:18-19 was jumping out in my face. In that moment I realized that verse was for me and I knew exactly what God was trying to tell me. He was saying "Hey, my beautiful daughter. You are my Princess and you need to sit back and let Me hand pick the Prince I want my daughter with instead of chasing frogs!"
As soon as I started looking at that verse everyday I started letting go of writing my own love story little by little. Now it is eighteen days later and I feel that I have given the pen over to God one hundred percent. I've realized I don't need this elaborate fairy tale to tell my future kids, because however my husband and I end up together will be the best fairy tale ever told anyways because God is writing it! So yeah, I've chosen to be happy and I'm happier now that I'm just holding the pen to only my fictional characters lives and not my own!